They say age is just a number. But one cannot deny the fact that there are certain issues that take place as an individual ages. Even if we all wish we could stay 23 forever, there are certain things “new” things in life that have to take center stage in our lives.
Next month, I will be celebrating my 25th birthday. I have no plans yet except to accommodate presents – so this serves an early notice to you guys 🙂
To tell you honestly, I still do feel like a 20-year old girl. I still laugh at the same jokes, and cry over the same things (i.e. an impending heartbreak, for instance). What has changed are my priorities and concerns. Sure we all want to secure the future of our parents in their old age, help out our younger siblings, and especially establish a stable and comfortable life for our future family. But when you’re 18 or 20, you don’t necessarily jot this down in your to-do list with a due date on the side.
I think it goes differently when you’re in your middle or late twenties. You now have (or you believe you have) the power to work on these concerns. Inevitably, you teach yourself to take “calculated” steps. What I mean by this is that you now think about the path to take, very very well before taking action. If that means shifting careers, taking on a new or additional job, or even dumping a partner you think won’t contribute for the purpose you want happening in your life. You also get bothered by your conscience because you don’t want to hurt people along the way while you take this more serious mission (though sometimes, you just won’t be able to help it). These are the risks involved now including the part when you will experience a tinge of loneliness and anxiety at some point. Sad but true.
To wish that I am 19 again is immature. So what I do want to say is that we can all hope instead, for better days – even if there will be more concerns to think of, more emotions to exhaust, and more numbers added to your age.
This isn’t my happy-birthday-post yet. This sounds more serious than festive, anyway 🙂